Mewvulpix25

Hey everyone. So since I’ve been lacking inspiration and ideas, I’m looking for some requests from my watchers. Different things you all wanna see in my style. It can be pretty much from any fandom or whatever that I’ve already posted art of and a few others. I can draw OCs too, if people want.

I’m not looking for points or anything. Just a challenge maybe. A challenge and ideas.

Thanks guys~

Ok so this is just a general update. Here ya go:

1. So I'm really sorry about not being on for like EVER and taking awhile to do the asks n stuff so yeah... sorry. 

2. I haven't been doing much drawing lately, honestly... my HW takes up most of my time. So so sorry to all my watchers (love ya guys~) 

3. I'll probably still be on and off... thankfully, my spring break is soon, so HOPEFULLY I can get some shiz out.

4. No fan art for awhile likely. At least not YouTuber fan art. I'm 6 months behind on Jacksepticeye  soooooooo yeah. 

5. I know I've been tagged a few times and I'll (ATTEMPT TO) get to those soon.

6. I have gotten SUPER into Gravity Falls. But I actually still need to watch it. I've only seen the FINAL episode, so... I hope I can get some art out about it. (LOVE HUMAN BILL  :bademoticon:  :bademoticon: OMG HOT) I mean..... DUN JUDGE MEHHHHHH  

7. I've started to pretty hard core ship BillDip :bademoticon: (SUE ME!)

8. I would ALWAYS love requests, commissions, or just off-the-wall drawing ideas~!


DAS ALL FOR NOW~! Thanks for reading in~

Alright. I'm really sorry to all my watchers for not posting in so long. Since September. It's just that I have been using bases and don't want to post something that is 'not mine' if you get what I mean.

I still have been drawing of course but not really any freehand. So I didn't want to post it. If you do want me to anyway, please tell me. I feel bad for not posting. I will try to get to the asks soon as I have time to.

Thanks for understanding everyone

Hey guys... I've been thinking about some things lately. First, I just want to put out there that I have depression and I've been fighting it for a couple years now. And I know that I'm not the only one. I just have a few questions... 

Have you ever felt like theres no one there? Like you cry out for help either literally, or figuratively, But no one comes? Have you felt like you're lost and alone inside the darkness of your own mind? Have you felt like if you disappeared that it would take everyone days? Weeks? Months? To even figure out that you're gone? Have you felt completely worthless?

I've felt like this before... Almost constantly actually. I'm that person in a group that is surrounded by friends and yet, still feel completely alone and left out. I'm that person that sits on their computer when friends are around because maybe I can escape to the internet rather than dealing with my problems in real life. It's not really an escape though, because I'm still left out. 

I'm terrible at art and writing. I don't understand why so many people watch me. Or how I POSSIBLY got so many reads on my book on wattpad. Maybe I'm the person that everyone compares their art to so they can feel like "at least my art is better than theirs." Maybe its because I could get sympathy. But I can see that I'm still terrible, even if you disagree. Some of my friends I wonder "do they REALLY care about me?" But I don't want to tell anyone that I'm slowly falling apart. Even if I smile all day, every day, inside I'm falling apart at the seams. 

I don't want to be a burden. So, I keep it to myself. Because I'd rather suffer alone, than drag everyone else down. Even though I already do. I'm the one of a group that just drags everyone else down. And I'm always in the way. At school, work, home. 

At one point, I thought I could be an astrophysicist. But the best i can do in most classes is a C. I'm failing two classes as of right now because I'm just a complete dummy. Im not smart, Im not talented, I'm not cute, I'm not funny, i'm just a terrible person. I can't draw, i can't write, i can't do anything that could help anyone. 

You might say all this could lead to suicide, but I'm too much of a COWARD to commit suicide. maybe I'm one of those people who cut themselves to feel better, but ik not that either. because I'm too much of a coward to try. so i go with the next thing. i scratch myself until my skin is red. you would think that people would notice but no one does. that or they just don't care. i bet i could walk into school, having just cut myself (if i could) and show my friends, i bet they wouldn't care. no one notices me, which might be good because I'm always in the way anyway. but no one can notice that I'm broken inside, even while smiling. I try to make everyone happy if possible but maybe thats because I lack the happiness myself. 

    And if you didn't read ANY of that, thats ok. i understand. no one cares anyway. But I know that, someone else deserves your watch more than me, someone else deserves your like more than me. because I can't do a DAMN thing right. so you should just ignore this journal because everyone else does. and why should you care? Everyone think this is just a cry for attention, that I want sympathy. But I don't, because someone else needs it more than me. I don't even know why I'm posting this but I am. And if you're reading this... why? why are you? I'm just another dumb teenager right?

Hey guys... I've been thinking about some things lately. First, I just want to put out there that I have depression and I've been fighting it for a couple years now. And I know that I'm not the only one. I just have a few questions... 

Have you ever felt like theres no one there? Like you cry out for help either literally, or figuratively, But no one comes? Have you felt like you're lost and alone inside the darkness of your own mind? Have you felt like if you disappeared that it would take everyone days? Weeks? Months? To even figure out that you're gone? Have you felt completely worthless?

I've felt like this before... Almost constantly actually. I'm that person in a group that is surrounded by friends and yet, still feel completely alone and left out. I'm that person that sits on their computer when friends are around because maybe I can escape to the internet rather than dealing with my problems in real life. It's not really an escape though, because I'm still left out. 

I'm terrible at art and writing. I don't understand why so many people watch me. Or how I POSSIBLY got so many reads on my book on wattpad. Maybe I'm the person that everyone compares their art to so they can feel like "at least my art is better than theirs." Maybe its because I could get sympathy. But I can see that I'm still terrible, even if you disagree. Some of my friends I wonder "do they REALLY care about me?" But I don't want to tell anyone that I'm slowly falling apart. Even if I smile all day, every day, inside I'm falling apart at the seams. 

I don't want to be a burden. So, I keep it to myself. Because I'd rather suffer alone, than drag everyone else down. Even though I already do. I'm the one of a group that just drags everyone else down. And I'm always in the way. At school, work, home. 

At one point, I thought I could be an astrophysicist. But the best i can do in most classes is a C. I'm failing two classes as of right now because I'm just a complete dummy. Im not smart, Im not talented, I'm not cute, I'm not funny, i'm just a terrible person. I can't draw, i can't write, i can't do anything that could help anyone. 

You might say all this could lead to suicide, but I'm too much of a COWARD to commit suicide. maybe I'm one of those people who cut themselves to feel better, but ik not that either. because I'm too much of a coward to try. so i go with the next thing. i scratch myself until my skin is red. you would think that people would notice but no one does. that or they just don't care. i bet i could walk into school, having just cut myself (if i could) and show my friends, i bet they wouldn't care. no one notices me, which might be good because I'm always in the way anyway. but no one can notice that I'm broken inside, even while smiling. I try to make everyone happy if possible but maybe thats because I lack the happiness myself. 

    And if you didn't read ANY of that, thats ok. i understand. no one cares anyway. But I know that, someone else deserves your watch more than me, someone else deserves your like more than me. because I can't do a DAMN thing right. so you should just ignore this journal because everyone else does. and why should you care? Everyone think this is just a cry for attention, that I want sympathy. But I don't, because someone else needs it more than me. I don't even know why I'm posting this but I am. And if you're reading this... why? why are you? I'm just another dumb teenager right?